Firefly Moments.

17 Nov

May your trails be crooked, winding, lonesome, dangerous, leading to the most amazing view. May your mountains rise into and above the clouds.”

We’ve all got things in our life that we’d rather never remember so that we can just forget them. But the thing about difficult circumstances, they bog you down. They can make you feel every emotion imaginable, they can be suffocating. The more you box up the things you just can’t face, the more they will try to fight against you. Facing them, though painful, is a way to let go, a way to move on.

I know from experience that at first, it just seems easiest to put things in boxes and pretend they don’t exist. And I also know how emotional it is to open up those boxes and faced the things you’ve neglected for years. I’ve been dealing with opening boxes for a few years, and after going to a PostSecret event on Tuesday night, things have become clear. Though I knew already that putting things in boxes isn’t emotionally healthy, we all do it in some form or another. Sometimes we do it without thinking. That’s been something I’ve realized lately….the amount of things I’ve boxed away without even knowing it. Opening those boxes and freeing what’s inside is hard mainly because for many people, they relive the experiences that have been put in the boxes. And it hurts. The point of putting things away is to try to forget, and yet here you are, and these memories are coming to the surface and staring you right in the face and you’ve got nowhere to go. The challenge is being able to come to terms with those experiences, realizing that even though they may be a big part of your life, you’ve grown from them. You’ve gained strength just by facing them again.

There are some people who never gain that strength because they can’t face their memories. But the important thing to remember is that there’s no deadline. If it takes you longer to accept some experiences and move on than some of your friends, don’t stress over it. We all move at different places, and we all accept experiences in our own time. However, it’s good to realize the relief that comes with accepting experiences you’ve boxed away. No, it doesn’t mean re-experiencing them and then dwelling on them for a year. It means realizing they happened, but becoming aware that those experiences are only certain parts of your life, and you’ve got years with friends or family that you’d never want to forget. The key is to hold on to those experiences, the ones when you couldn’t stop laughing, the ones where you stayed up all night with your best friends, the ones where you spent a holiday with a family that loves you. That’s what you cling to…your firefly moments. The moments that may not have had a huge impact like the boxed experiences, but ones that bring you enough joy to fill you from your head all the way down to your toes.

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3 Responses to “Firefly Moments.”

  1. Errign November 17, 2011 at 4:51 pm #

    I love the idea of “firefly moments” – I’d never heard that before. I used to be the QUEEN of putting sh*t aside and not dealing and I’ve gotten a lot better about it!

    • ameliaclaire92 November 17, 2011 at 4:54 pm #

      I made up that phrase a few minutes ago. It just kinda came to me. Seems to fit. 🙂

  2. ailialana November 17, 2011 at 5:03 pm #

    Expressed so beautifully Amelia…you are very gifted and I just love the title too.

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